Half way

I had my third exam today and it was OK. I'm so fed up of revision some days, then others it doesn't bother me because it keeps my mind off things.
I spoke to Janyney last night and told her about everything, I miss her so much I was nearly crying - I just want her to run over in her slippers for a cup of tea and a cuddle. I'm so happy I've got Jenniflower though, we see each other every day and make each other smile through the trauma of revision! We were talking about doing something in the Easter holidays, going camping and walking and get up to general sillyness. She lives quite close to Flick and Hadyn so I'm going to go and stay with them too which will be good.
Went bouldering today and going to the Foundry tomorrow after my exam which will be good, although I'm going to hurt at the weekend! I went to the Foundry on Tuesday too and then went to Cates with Bethan for diner and a very girly chat - it was good to get to know them a little better and hopefully we're going to make it a regular occurence.
I've been trying hard to see people since I got back, to keep me busy. I'd forgotten how many friends I have in different places - it still seems strange to me considering the past. I can't believe how things have changed since coming to Uni, it's strange when I go home and there's hardly anyone there. I'm know I have Marc, but I'm worried what will happen to the other lads considering things with Frank. I hope they won't forget me...

Last week was a good week except for the random not sleeping, but this week isn't so good. I'm up and down and thinking about all sorts of things. It's strange not seeing Saurus, I miss the cuddles and company. It's Marc's birthday doo 2 weeks tomorrow, it's probably going to be the first time that me and Frank spend any time together and I'm nervous. I don't know what I'm going to feel, and I don't want things to be awkward for Marc.
He's been telling me that he can't sleep, and he thinks and dreams about me all the time. I don't know what he's trying to do or say. Is he saying he wants me back? I don't think so but what am I to think? He can't just have me as a friend so suddenly, it doesn't work like that. I know he's stressed from his exams but he can't still have me to talk to and lean on when things are not right. I'm not his girlfriend any more and it's not helping me get on with things. Why can't he talk to Rav, or Abi. Why me?

All for now, going to write Smee a letter and send her Nerina Pallot's album :0)